May 7th 2011

My day off has arrived, 'Being' is the rule for today.

7 days I have now been on this research project of mine... (3 years of study to get to this point...) And the results (so far) have been very significant.
The brain fog is lifting; words I need to use are available, thoughts are becoming clearer and conversations more thoughtful and not so urgent.

Of all the challenges that ME/CFS has shared with me.... For me......Brain fog has been the most upsetting.

Good morning UK!


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6th May 2011

As I drive home my thoughts alert me to a deeper understanding of ME/CFS.

As i look in the rear view mirror i notice my eyes are tired, sore and watery whilst my body acknowledges it's own pain of DOMS (delayed onset of muscle soreness) - a post exercise outcome.
Before ME/CFS I used to greet DOMS with a triumphant smile and a gentle pat of self satisfaction. The victory was all about the challenges I had overcome during the training session, the release of powerful endorphins and the 'stride' of satisfaction that came immediately after.
Now DOMS are unrelated to physical exercise.... The are just another reminder to 'slow' down.


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May 2nd 2011

A busy day with customers, lots of talking and teaching.... My eyes feel like they have been injected with adrenaline; darting from side to side delivering me an intense headache, watery achy eyes and self disorientation.
My adrenal glands are relaxed... My thoughts are 'parasympathetic' all the way... My jaw muscles are tightening making the pronounciation of 'adaptability' seem an almost impossible task...


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May 1st 2011

I woke this morning with dramatically mixed feelings about starting the programme to GET RID of ME/CFS... I'm apprehensive about change, worried about the possible side effects; however the excitement of having my life back (although with more 'being' than 'doing' in my day to day life) and living loving life will dominate my thoughts.
10 Oregon Grape Root drops on Tongue 10 mins before breakfast... (tick) Replete (tick) FOS (tick) USANA digestive enzymes and multi vitamins and minerals (tick)...
It's going to be a great day!


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April 30th 2011

I lay in bed last night trying to focus on relaxing and not on the worry of what tomorrow brings.
For 6 days I have been on a strong dose of antibiotics, this is a desparate bid to rid my body of an infection. To me, my body, my beliefs... this is all wrong. However there no natural alternative that would have the power to break this infection.
Since a child, usually with a chest or throat infection, antibiotics have been prescribed to me on average twice per year.
As soon as the first tablet is administered it feels like poison running through my veins... Is it the ME/CFS that has me so alert and sensitive to my body? Or is it just fact... Antibiotics=poison?
I feel sick, my body hurts, my glands swell and i become irritated and restless worrying about where the next 'pain' will come from....


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April 29th 2011

I work in an industry that not only challenges my physical limitations but also has a daily impact on my beliefs about myself... It is the Health and Fitness Industry. I remain very passionate and excited about each day I spend within the industry and have enjoyed every challenge it has bestowed upon me. However 21 years on and it has nearly killed me....


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